Venting

I work my ass off studying for a chem test. I go to both the reviews, I look over my notes, I ask questions. I solve problems, I review concepts. And I do a whopping six points better than I did on the last test, which I took cold? WHAT IS THE FUCKING POINT! Either way, I got a D.

I work my ass off studying for my Japanese midterm. I recopy my notes, run over 54 kanji, memorize sentence patterns and common expressions. And I get a D.

WHAT IS THE FUCKING POINT! WHY AM I EVEN WORKING? It's not showing. I might as well sit on my ass and stare at the wall.

I put forth the effort and get nothing from it. I'm not used to feeling stupid.