The most unshiny girl

Wow. What I feel right now is about as close to the opposite of shiny as you can get. The damn family came home after being away for two weeks...so it was bad enough that they were ruining my peace and quiet.

Well, I thought, I'll be nice, we'll hang out tonight, blah blah blah. I was trying to be all happy and glad to see them. Cuz actually, I was. (AAAAH. Unusual emotion for me.) I told Fam "I missed you, I'm glad you're home." She replies. "Yeah, I'm glad I'm home too." I try to give her a hug, but she doesn't really seem to find it all that nice. No mention of missing me or wishing I had come along.

Then she was talking all about her trip. Mostly to Tiny One. She'd talk to me when she wanted me to do something or when she randomly snapped at me and walked off when I tried to say something to her.


I also tried to get them all to come driving with me, we'd grab dinner, have some fun, etc. She goes "Oh, me, MiniFam and Unc are going to have dinner at Mary's." Wow. Thanks a lot for including me. Thanks for wanting to spend time with me. Why do I even bother to be nice? No matter what I do, they mostly ignore me, anyway.


Sometimes I get the feeling they wish I was Tiny One. Fam was telling her AAALL about the trip and stuff. Didn't bother telling me. I've told Tiny One this, but I don't think she took me seriously. I just get the feeling that they wish I was more like her. Guess that proves how great she is. Cuz I'm the first to admit that she rocks. But I'm not her. And it really hurts when they act like they want to talk to her more than they do me.

Feel like crying. Not worth it, though. I almost never cry.

Still, sometimes I think they never wanted me to come live with them. But there was no other option, so they just made do. And I think they regret it. But I don't think there's anything I can do to change it. Because God knows that I've tried.

Oh well. I'll get over it. Let's face it- it's just the way it's always been. What else can I expect?
:: Glo Paint 8:03 PM ::
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I have decided that, in regards to the rules of Final Fantasy, that Fam is immune to Ice magic, but will fall easily if I use Holy upon her.

Heh. Now all I need is the ability to summon or cast spells. Damn. My plan isn't going to work, is it?
:: Glo Paint 9:00 PM ::
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