once again left out by family

They bitch at me for never eating with them when they go out to eat. But they always go when I have no time to! I mean, they KNEW Rose was coming over to help me study for the Chemistry test I'm going to fail, and yet they ask me "Do you want to go out to eat with us?" They KNEW I was busy, so I told them that, and she says "Well, it's polite to ask." In other words, she knew I couldn't go. The next time they hold the "you never hang out with us" thing against me, oooooh, am I EVER going to bring this up.

They never even ask me when they go places anymore. Either they don't want me along, or they think I'll just say no because that's what I "always do".


Why the hell do I feel so bad about this? ((When will they start being nice? I can't do it all on my own...I only wish it was that easy. That way I could be whatever the hell it is they want me to be so they'd just shut up and be nice. And finally leave me alone so I don't feel like a worthless piece of shit anymore.))

:: Glo Paint 6:37 PM ::